Hi my supervisor or any superior management,
I'm CY. Over here I want to express my dissatisfaction over my intern work. As you all now, since the day I take over the work as qz coordinator, all the results were always negative. Does it a matter of my working ability? Or the issues existed before my turn? In my view, it doesn't matter. As what in my mind is, a problem is still a problem, no matter how you cover it. In the pursuit to a better working system procedure, I believe that we has several discussions about this. However, most of the time will just end up with an empty talk, where we all have no time to think about this. No matter how we feel bad about the current system, we are too busy to solve the new rising issues, where some of the issues are the old issues where nobody paying attention about that, or maybe those of covered purposely, and most of the issues are the new issues of the old issues. At such, we are too tired with the endless problems to solve, where the dream to excel the fabricated working system is always at stacks.
The another issues that is making me uncomfortable is, the working culture here. That's too cruel to say that, the people here are too afraid to bare the mistakes, too greedy to take the advantages, too weak to raise the real and justice voice and too smart in fleet away from problems. That are real, however nobody is going to correct it, nor the management. In the hierarchy, each level of 'leader' plays two roles, that are, the boss of the lower level, the subordinate of the higher level. What will it happens then, as the boss character, they are not too good to allocate a fair workloads or expectation to his employees. As for the subordinate part, they need to cover or minimize the issues before reporting to their superior. Concomitant with this is, they only works at boss, but not a leader. In my eyes, and in my believe as well, a leader is the one has minimal handiwork, but has the maximal observation and judging work. A leader can't be often looking to the screen, communication with the workers is uppermost pivotal to truly understand the matters lies between them, and provide them a solution or precise direction in time when necessary. A leader can't just expect your subordinates will walk into your room to share their matters. As a part of them, me too, i'm too afraid to tell you the truth because I also don't want my impression turns down, I don't want my raise varnish or the worst, I don't want to lose my job. If the people are thinking in such a way, what they will do is they will do anything to hide the truth, and of course, all the bad deeds are playing around under desks and somehow, someone gets hurt or damaged. That's why, I will not call this person as leader but just a boss.
And is late night now, I want to tell you that I don't like my current job. First, this is not the same with what we agree in the interview. If I understand this job scope prior or during interview, I definitely will ask to on hold for consideration or else, decline on the spot. Second, coordinate work is not suit me. Let's agree to disagree starting from my personnel. I admit all my weakness here, I'm negative, I'm weak in communication, I'm weak in rejection, I'm too extreme in somehow, and I has the logic where most of the people can't buy it, or agree with. Offering me a job as dealer, all the weak points that I listed is sufficient enough to fail the work. As a intern, do you think it is a right choice to ask me to deal with the permanent employees here? With no doubt, bully is predictable, yet unavoidable. Third, imagine when a person is ache of some issues, and seeing his friend with the same level do free and peace of mind all the time. What will happen then? Jealousy block will be built up and when it reaches the capacity limit, rebellion will be the next.
These words are come out with no solid proof and evidence. It is all come out with what I feel and think from working experience in your place. And also, this issue has no solution or improvements, unless you are a real LEADER.
